After I got used to working again and Kal was in school full time and we just barely were in the swing of things, Zay had this urge to make a change himself. He has been bored and unhappy in his job lately. He knows he's destined to do so much more in life than retail jobs. Seriously. I knew this for many years, but it took longer for him to come to the realization that he needed to step away from "jobs" and work towards what HE wants to be when he grows up... a social worker. He has so much potential, but little self confidence sometimes. But that's been changing lately.
After a lot of thought and long discussions and talking with our Bishop and lots of prayer, we finally decided that Zay should go to school full time and get his education NOW while he has this opportunity. He's been taking a couple classes at a time for years now. But he needs to focus and go full time. NOW. Not later. Not dragging it out any longer.
It's one of those things that we've kind of had on the back burner. Just in case we had another baby come into our family... one of us would need to stay home. So we've been working and working, trying to save enough money to 1) afford adoption or fertility treatments and 2) make it so that one of us can stay home when baby comes. Zay just can't not work. It's in his personality. If he's not off at a job, he's at home cutting hair on the side.
But we can't just wait around to see how the baby situation plays out. I am pretty positive we WILL add to our family in 2015... somehow, someway. But we can't live our lives revolving around that idea, because in reality we have no idea when that will happen. We have to press on with our lives without that hovering over us. Just live. Right here and right now. And do the things we've been holding back from doing.
And that means Zay gets to quit his job and go to school full time next semester. No matter what that does to our finances. No matter how scary that might be.
Me finding the job that I did and Zay deciding to finish his degree definitely pushed back moving-to-Georgia plans. I knew it. I knew if we said out loud that we'd move to Georgia in a year, something would happen to change it. I could've sworn I was gonna chill out with Kal for another year and pack up our minivan and drive it across the country. But instead, I'm working. Kal's in school. And so is Zay. Soooooo, I think we'll be here for awhile longer.
It's the best decision for the long-term and for investing in our future. Retail jobs have been holding Zay back, a comfortable/easy thing for him to do... but not something that he enjoys or means something for him. He's been afraid to take that step... to quit and walk away and allow himself to do something more meaningful, but scary. He's also super disappointed in himself for not going to college right after high school. But we all make dumb decisions when we're young and we just have to forgive ourselves and start again. Even if that means taking classes with 18 year olds when you're 32, going on 33. He can do it. He's been doing it. And I'm excited for him and for what this will mean for us in the future. :)
Bye, bye Best Buy... It's been a good run.
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